Current state of mind – A rant
People are sick. People are dying. We are sitting at home counting our blessings, but also scared and exhausted, grateful but guilty, overworked and anxious.
Our elected national leaders have failed. UTTERLY FAILED in the face of adversity. The heads of state of the opposing parties have their hands chained and unable to do much, but at least they are doing their best. THANKS GOD for the lockdown – can you imagine if we followed our PM’s advice on ‘optional locks’ where we would be today?
Elections won by loud rallies and religious events to win favor with the majority population of India appear to be of greater concern to our Honorable PM and his vexatious party, than thousands of human deaths on a daily basis. These dead are upon them – and their religion will hold them responsible.
The PM Cares Fund – perhaps the biggest scam of the past year, seems to have done nothing remarkable. Sadly, it was the locals who gave him their hard-earned money, despite the rough waters they themselves were crossing.
Many brave souls are volunteering, and citizens have been pushing overnight to do what they can for their country. Since we no longer trust our leaders to use our money consciously, we instead gladly donate to individuals, who get the job done better and faster. Even though India is currently caught in an insane political abyss, perhaps the future looks bright, now that we can see a crop of conscious and concerned citizens who could potentially lead us, instead of these selfish, greedy idiots. of power who are currently running the show.
I get angry easily these days – remember what I wrote above? Grateful but guilty sums up my feelings well. Helpless to help and constantly praying for the well-being of my loved ones. I laugh at people for little things, I do more work than usual, in an effort to block out all the negative thoughts by keeping me busy, but then I scream about feeling overworked.
Argh. Even the little joys seem insignificant – don’t deserve to be celebrated in light of “everything that’s going on in the world”. My very first legal article, first big cover story in a national newspaper who has received tons of appreciation, lots of opportunities to work and grow in the journalism and content creation space – all of this has happened in the last 10 days. But of course, “everything that’s going on in the world” has overshadowed that. And rightly so.
Argh. Double argh. Where am I going with this? Nowhere. I had to write an article for Blogchatter’s monthly Cause A Chatter activity, so I figured I would talk about mental health trying to sum up my own crazy feelings in an article. I’m sure at least a few people would relate to my feelings. Then I thought I had all this sponsored content (most of which was created and paid for before things got so crazy) waiting to be uploaded to Instagram, and I’m just avoiding putting it up. because it may seem heartless. So maybe I should write something straightforward and honest before I do this? I don’t know the man. Is anyone even going to read this? Probably not.
Okay, bye. Be careful.
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